Oh baby..

lagi tidur2an, andri ngadep gue. gue ngadep andri. liat2an, senyum2 kecil. megang2 muka andri, ketawa2..

W : sayang..

A : yaaa… *sambil senyum2 ngeliatin gue*

W : kamu lagi mikir apa siiihhh? *senyum2, sambil mempersiapkan diri supaya gak salting mau dipuji*

A : …. *mikir bentar sambil ngeliat atas* iya nih mam, kok LEHER AKU PEGEL BANGET YA?! salah tidur apa gimana sih? beli bantal yuk ma.. yang bulu angsa aja sekalian kali ya..

W : ………. DJEEEEEEEEEEGGGEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR *ngglundung dari kasur kesamber petirĀ  yang namanya MALU*

OH. Selamat datang, 2 tahun perkawinan.

I’m back.

And so i’ve failed.

Hari kamis kemarin gue dapet. heheh. kecewa? pastinya. i had a really high hopes on this one. tapi selama 2 minggu nunggu hasil ini gue berubah jadi orang lain. i get very tempered. i yelled at people for some unknown reasons. i did nothing at work. i cried very very easily, i hurt my love ones. and it even get worse by the time PMS coming.

Did i cried when i found out that i failed?, no. i’m not crying, i hatehatehate the fact 1 bulan lagi belum bisa hamil but i’m not crying. i got a superb husband who always back me up even when i said “baby, i’m tired.. i don’t think i can do this anymore, i’m sorry”. dan jawaban Andri bikin gue mau nangis, he said “you know how much i love you, baby? aku sangat sayang sama kamu sampai kalo (amit2) kita hidup berdua terus sampai mati pun aku mau, i’m willing to give up my hopes and dreams if that makes you happy”.

girls, that’s what i called a true love.

terus gimana? ya berhenti. i pulled out my courage yesterday untuk bilang “boleh ditunda dulu? tekanannya terlalu besar, aku stress, sayang..” i’m somewhat ready if andri got really pissed off. but he did not. he just said it’s ok, i’m with you all the way.

please, don’t feel sorry for me. masih banyak orang lain yang lebih mengharapkan hamil daripada gue. gue dan andri sepakat untuk balik lagi ke fase pasrah-rela-ikhlas, tanpa mengharapkan apa2, karena kalo gue mengharapkan gue hamil, gue yg kemarin kembali lagi. i got stressed out. and i don’t like it.

i love my life right now, alhamdulillah for everything i had and will have. i’m not gonna waste it, i’ll try to livin as happy as i can be.

thank you so much my dear friends, your encouragement thru facebook and BBm really means a lot to me.

I’m Lucky I’m Yours

“Lucky”
(Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat)

Do you hear me,
I’m talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I’m trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don’t know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I’ll wait for you I promise you, I will

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we’re in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I’m sailing through the sea
To an island where we’ll meet
You’ll hear the music fill the air
I’ll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you’re all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I’m lucky we’re in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

ps : lagu ini telat 9 taun!!!!!

ps buat Andri : kalo aja lagu ini ada taun 2000, kayaknya kita pacaran saat itu juga ya pap, instead of ngabisin 1,5 taun belagak temenan tapi mesra. wehehehehehe. i love you. yer my best friend’s!!!!

Andri’s 25 Random Things!

I do this because I inspired by my wife (Woro Pradono) – (and because she make me to, hehe) and even though 25 things will not describe who I am, but it will somehow disclose how I life my happy life with my little family.

  1. My best moment in life so far was December 17, 2006; the day that I married to the woman I love, I adore, I engaged myself to for eternity.
  2. My worst-breakdown moment was January 2, 2008; the day that my mom, our mom, passed away, my whole world feels tumbling down, a lot of regret but a lot of more pray nowadays.
  3. I proudly applied to more than 150 companies before obtain my first job at Maersk as key account executive.
  4. I don’t know if this is a form of misbehavior, but I love to check out job vacancies in media and excited of scanning through job portal, even until now when I thankfully and actually don’t need a new job, hehe.
  5. YES, me and my wife frequently sing duet in the car to a song play in the radio!
  6. I recognized thousand of songs that radio ever played and I memorized most of the lyrics.
  7. I’m not gonna say I love my blackberry, but blackberry do help..a lot!
  8. I gained 10kg since I worked in the current company, yet some people still think im too thin.
  9. I enjoyed and obsessed with football, I own, manage and captained football team(s), but what I actually look forward the most when we play football is the time when me and my friends meet and joking around
  10. 3 and 17-12 are my favorite number
  11. I love making friends with people who feel the same way; I can say that I am honored to have acquaintances from CEO to security officer.
  12. I am a dead jealous and slightly “over-preventive” when it comes to my wife, I am jealous then, I am still now J
  13. I cannot play any music instruments, but I have natural talent doing many sports.
  14. I never smoke, I cursed junkie, and I consume alcohol only in a very special occasion.
  15. My passion beside my wife and football is TRAVELING, luckily I have been to almost all continents, but I love repeated it with my wife, maybe when we are retired, we will go around the world.
  16. I’m like a “kid & baby magnet”, rarely find a baby or kid that doesn’t get along with me, hope that’s a sign for me to be a good dad :P
  17. I have phobia for “buah lychee” and raisin.
  18. I only wore 1 working shoes to the office, meeting and even ceremonies, but I own 6-7 pair of football shoes!
  19. I cant eat without soy sauce and chili sauce.
  20. I have a strong memories and able to remember all the important things and little details in the past, however ironically I’m a man who never look back, for me what happened in the past, stay in the past, good or bad.
  21. in cable, the “Asian Food Channel” and “Discovery Travel and Living” top my favorite TV channel list.
  22. I am a neat-freak person.
  23. Did I say I love my wife?
  24. We may not have billions and Bentley and lack of some things in our life, but I am truly grateful for what we have now.
  25. I completed this game in the middle of working hour, hehehe..