i got a confession to make, i did something stupid last night. i cried all night long.
jadi geneeeeeeee, berhubung stock DVD Gossip Girl udah lewat ama gue, dan nonton pula Season 2, episode 1-nya di yutub secara ga sabaran kan, gue ngorek2 koleksi DVD lain yg belom ketonton.
YEAAHH!! ada PS : I love you!!
nontonlah eike.
5 menit pertama, komentar gue “ih, sama kaya kita kalo berantem pa, uahauhauhaua…” model2 yelling enden made out.-by this i mean literally made out, jangan jijik dengernya, makanya KAWIN buruan, bencong!-
10 menit kemudian, kok gue mewek? suaminya meninggal!!!
30 menit kemudian, ok, perasaan gue nonton supposed to be drama comedy deh, ini kok jadi titanic campur armageddon? gue nangis makin kenceng, suaminya ninggalin surat2 buat istrinyaaaaa.. aaaaaaaaaa…
1 jam kemudian, ok, i’m not shy admit that, GUE NANGIS NGEJER nonton film keparat ini, jam 11 malem, sial.
2 jam kemudian, diatas kasur, gue ngeliatin andri yang dari sebelom ketiduran capek bujukin gue nonstop bilang hey baby, i;m here and not goin anywere”..
having my own thought dancing that night while listening to mu iPod, gimana kalo gue meninggal? kalo andri meninggal? can i hang on? jangan2 gue pingsan tiap 5 menit sekali. ga bisa ya kaya gini terus? kenapa mesti meninggal? kenapa mesti ga bisa kenal lagi disana? how can i handle this situation?
… NANGIS lagi deh gue tengah malem.
tiba2 keinget pas andri dikdas, duh ga denger kabarnya sebulan, ga bisa ngomong, ga bisa liat, and i litteraly cried every night. kaya gitu gak ya? ga bisa ya gini terus ya Tuhan? (diulang, ngarep banget rupanya gue).
and i hold his hand, shade my tears and my ingus with it (hiehiehiehei), narik pipinya andri bentar (mumpung tidur dianya), bentuk muka joker, nyengir2 sendiri, andri melek dikit, nyium jidat gue, trus tidur lagi.
gue? MEWEK lagiiii… hehehehe. sial. kenapa jadi sentimentil gini yak?